Post: 05.10.2024
Yeah-yeah, i am here again. I found that my site have some bugs and issues after uh... reworking sizes to rem instead of px and i fixed some of them. I am still alive btw. To be honest i am tired of do not understanding myself. Like i dont know what i am and what i feeling and how to control this feeling. Psychologist helped me by offer me one of type of dealing with bad thoughts, but to bo honest it doesnt work much. I dont know. I am not bad and there is nothing bad. everything is fine. all is fine. but something inside me trying to say that everything is not fine. i think its cause of past what i literally forgot about this.. Like i dont remember my past almost at all. Maybe something bad happened what i just tried to forget everything and do not suffer... I dont know...
Post: 15.09.2024
Hello everyone, i am still alive :D well, i am waiting for moment of X, but while it is going, i decided to change site a bit. now everything using not "px", but "rem" cause it cool ig (font size = 100%). So yeah. Also i started with building another cool page what will be about how i see my mental state? idk, you will see it by your own. but now it is wip. thank you for reading it. see you later! (i wanna die)
Post: 12.09.2024
Hello there, sadly, but i am still alive. Times passed through and i am getting used to life in domitory like this. At least my roommates is cool. Also teacheres is cool too, they are not that angry and learning rightly. Today i updated site, i changed video at youtube music player and extend link effect to words too (they was only at the pictures)... about me, i sended request to our university psychologist center and they accepted my ask for help. i dont know should i be happy or cry about this. finally i will really know whats wrong (or not) with me, but i am still afraid of this. what if they will expell me cause of this? i dont know. i cant know. but i should learn it. it was 3 year since this shit is going so it will be useful for me. also She said that "i should seek help" though. welp, thanks for reading this (i still dont know why you reading this lol). see you later if i will be alive and avaliable for post more. ;)
Post: 30.08.2024
I headed to domitory cause now i study in university in new town. Now i am living only on my own, like i can do anything what i want, but at same time i should care about myself by my own. Its strange cause i never was like that... By the way its cool, now i have a lot of cool friends and people. Only thing what still bother me is i still have this strange feels like Derealisation. I dont think that i really have it, but uhh... Sometimes it bother me so much. Well, i am still alive. I dont think that this site will update that often than before cause i dont have that much time now. Well, see you later.
Post: 25.08.2024
I am still alive. Today I made new layout for my site cause past was boring. Here is simple, but still beauty. Or maybe this is still piece of shit and i am just overthink about it. ahem, well. about my state. i completly derealisated, barely can stand in this world. hope nobody irl will know about my state... and nobody should know that i had attempt of 5u1c1d3. i think see you later?.. be cutie as always. :heart:
Post: 23.08.2024
Hello everyone, I am alive.. I have got into text Discord RolePlay Project for distract myself from bad things. It feels like I cant handle this anymore. But I wonder, is really everything changed, or I just started look at world from different angle?.. Anyways, nobody's care. Nobody's didn't even care at all. Never. It was just my self-belief, that someone really care about me and my activity. Here is nothing new in the site cause apathy still here.. I dont think I should continue doing this at all. Continue anything.. The end of the Post.
Post: 21.08.2024
I overcome my depressed state, but apathy didn't gone. Still struggle against myself and others. Let's about new on the site.
When you are open any link on the main page, it opening in the new tab. I made it for Music player, else it just stoping playing. Second is i made textbox for hyperlinks in the header more thin cause they was look the way big. Third is i am starting reworking Katrine's Absolute Solver ability for Solum RolePlay Project. But also it helps me to rework character and make her more detalised. Thats all about site updates. I am not done with Abs. Solv. page so here is still no hyperlinks on this page.
Thank you for reading this useless piece of my feels. If you really interesting in all of that and wanna contact with me, then you can write me anywhere, at least on the right side you can see my contacts. I hope see you later.
When you are open any link on the main page, it opening in the new tab. I made it for Music player, else it just stoping playing. Second is i made textbox for hyperlinks in the header more thin cause they was look the way big. Third is i am starting reworking Katrine's Absolute Solver ability for Solum RolePlay Project. But also it helps me to rework character and make her more detalised. Thats all about site updates. I am not done with Abs. Solv. page so here is still no hyperlinks on this page.
Thank you for reading this useless piece of my feels. If you really interesting in all of that and wanna contact with me, then you can write me anywhere, at least on the right side you can see my contacts. I hope see you later.
Post: 19.08.2024
Got absolute apathy. I have tried to do what i like, but even they dont giving me any enjoy. I am tired. Why everything should be like that? Why I am suffering from unknown shit what happened in my life? Only thing what i have to continue is this site. I dont know how to expand this site more... Maybe i'll just put all my life here cause why not. I want to disappear. I tried to put my Youtube Player for make any calm for me. I dont wanna sh for calm, this is too much for me. Plus Parent wont like this.
Today I retaked Depression Test and it showed I have "Severe Depression". Hah, so funny. I cant belive this, it cant be true. I AM FINE. I AM LIKE OTHERS. I AM NOT DEPRESSED.
Sorry, just thoughts from my mind. I wonder how many space i can fill with that text. I have only 1 GB cause I using free version of neocities so. Maybe I should clean up some of my unused Pages like from folder "seller". I created this for my friend, but he just said that this is piece of shit (not in straight way) and said he doesnt need my site.
*sigh* perfect.
Take this comics what i drew in 2021 or 2022, i dont remember. Anyways yeah. This comics about rejected love, the Main Character saying to person that he doenst love her and all relationships was cause of sorry for her.
Today I retaked Depression Test and it showed I have "Severe Depression". Hah, so funny. I cant belive this, it cant be true. I AM FINE. I AM LIKE OTHERS. I AM NOT DEPRESSED.
Sorry, just thoughts from my mind. I wonder how many space i can fill with that text. I have only 1 GB cause I using free version of neocities so. Maybe I should clean up some of my unused Pages like from folder "seller". I created this for my friend, but he just said that this is piece of shit (not in straight way) and said he doesnt need my site.
*sigh* perfect.
Take this comics what i drew in 2021 or 2022, i dont remember. Anyways yeah. This comics about rejected love, the Main Character saying to person that he doenst love her and all relationships was cause of sorry for her.
Post: 18.08.2024
I dont feel myself good at all. I slept around 16 hours, thought that it would help, but it made everything more worse. Okay then, i'll just igrone my feels. Today I'm gonna tune img things and add more characters in OC Archive. See you later.
Post: 16.08.2024
Here is full update of site! How are you here? I hope you are fine, heh. I need to tune some things here so yeah~
